Seven Things About ME

I got tagged by Jeanelle to list seven things about me. It's taken me till now to be able to sit down and type these up. This time has gotten me to think a little about what I would put, so I hope it's not all too stupid or strange, or whatever, but who cares, right?

1. I snore in my sleep. I have since I was a child. Removal of my tonsils was supposed to alleviate this among other things but clearly this "disease" has not gone away. According to my husband, I also now talk, cry, rub my arms, and do some kind of punch/fight move. Good to know honey.

2 Speaking of my husband, he is my favorite person in the world! I know a lot of wives would say that about their husbands, but I truly think that way! Never, before I met him, did anyone else understand me or at least try to understand me like he did/does. And even if he tries to act like he doesn't care about something or about what I'm doing or feeling, I know he truly does, and he ends up showing it later on. :) He accepts me for who I am which can be hard sometimes I'm sure. I'm glad we've been together for almost 11 years!

3. My biggest fear is failure. This fear is huge and has been a big reason I have suffered and still do suffer from panic attacks. I didn't realize what it was i was going through until I went to college. These have gotten better over the years and I can control them fairly easily, but they still pop up on occasion. They have even happened when I've been giving massages, I think because I sometimes do most of my thinking during those times. My panic attacks aren't as major as some people have to deal with, I know, but mine become more difficult at times when they inevitably lead me back to an old habit I had. Something I no longer do but still suffer the feelings of anyway. But like I said, this is all much better than it used to be, but the fear is still there.

4. In November, it will be 2 years since I ate fast food (minus the time I got Fazolis for everyone the day we moved - i'm only human right?!). I am very proud of this but only wish I could be that strict with caffeine and sugar.

5. I have a new obsession with the movie The Departed. It's randomly on HBO and every time it comes on, I get excited and want to watch it! We own it, but I think it's more fun when movies you like come on TV. And when it does, I have to sit and watch as much of it as I can. Does this mean I'm a violent person? I love this movie, what can I say?

6. I am jealous of my cat Stifler. There, I said it. I will look at him when he is all comfy on the couch and think or say to him, "Darn you and your capability to just lie around all day with no worries whatsoever." I especially hate it if I happen to have a moment to stop by home in the middle of the day. I'll see him just getting to lounge around, and I may even pet him but then I just get extremely jealous! I want nothing more at that moment than to stay at home either with him, or send him back to work in my place! I don't think my clients would understand though, do you?!

7. I am actually proud of my body. A lot of women these days don't feel that way unfortunately, but I do. I mean, yah, I have those days where nothing looks right or I feel "fat." We all do. But, I actually think I have a good body, even if I am flat chested, pale, and have an arch in my lower back that makes my butt stick out (thanks to running). :) These "faults" really don't bother me much. In all honesty I think I look better w/o any clothes on at all than w/ clothes. I never feel like anything fits me correctly. Maybe I should move to a nudist colony? No, not a good idea? Ok then, clothes it is.

So there ya go....7 things about me. Am I more boring now to you than before? One more thing about me would be a motto I try to live by: No matter how much you are suffering, don't cause others around you to suffer along with you. One of our jobs here on this earth is to help others and to be good witnesses. How can we do that if we're always negative and bringing everyone down around us?