it's been a while

It has been a long time since I've posted anything and I apologize for that. Or, none of you even noticed, so therefore I don't feel bad at all! :) I think I've been really busy the last couple of weeks. Probably not really, and I actually have had less clients due to the weather and such, but I think I have kept myself preoccupied anyway. Lately, I have been busy with stuff at church...still organizing all of my volunteers and lessons every week and going to meetings. Also, the fact that we're not members of our church finally caught up to me! I'm actually surprised no one ever brought it up to me before and made me become one before getting my job there, but I actually feel like me doing the work there was far more important than being a member, but now they want to make sure that all leaders are members. It's not that we didn't want to be members of our church, it just took a few years to even think about it, and then a few years to decide we wanted to be, and then procrastination followed that, so therefore, it never happened. I swear, it's just because we're lazy!

I'm also planning the May road trip! The travel agent I hired has been great and has already set up an itinerary and found all the places we'll be staying! I'm not even going to list off and describe these places, because they are just too amazing! I can't even believe I'm going to be staying somewhere like that and getting so many spa services! I can't wait till this trip! Also, it's going to start the night of the mini marathon which I'm running...

That brings me to something else I've been doing a lot of - running! I try to tun as much as possible, but it's still not enough. I can't wait till the weather gets better so I can get outside and do a 10 mile run! My goal is to do at least 11 out of the 13 miles, and finishing in 2-2 1/2 hrs. but running all of the 13 miles would be nice!

One last thing, which I didn't do, but I want to acknowledge, is that my friend Emily gave birth to her twins last night! Yay! We have all been praying for Emily, Brian and the babies for so long now and are so relieved to know that they are ok. I haven't gotten an update since this morning, but I think all is well. Addalyn and Aiden are both small babies, and Aiden will need some special care, but I know they are huge blessings and miracles! I hope to see them soon, but want to give them plenty of time to get situated! Congrats guys! I'm so happy for you all!

Now I will leave you with something new I have written again...i'm still trying to write from time to time, even though my writing sometimes scares me or makes things worse, but it also can help me. I wrote this last night after a bit of a rough moment I had...so it might be a bit confusing...

Go ahead and be prepared
Wear black when you're with me. That way you won't have to change
Laughter helps - it makes me smile, but who can take the time to laugh?
My breath picks up, my heart slows and then speeds to catch up
My eyes close, my body shakes, but no tears come.
I never thought I would miss the tears
But when they don't come, it just means I have to hold onto everything a little longer.
I asked you when you thought it would get better.
You shrugged your shoulders and looked at me like you thought I'd have it all figured out by now.
I asked you when we could talk about this again.
You shrugged your shoulders and looked at me as if we had already talked about it enough.
Enough is enough, is always enough.