Olivet!

Another year of church camp, here I come! I can't believe it has been another year already and we're back to the week of church camp, meaning the end of July, meaning summer is almost over. I barely remember summer starting! Time really does move faster the older you are. It's been a good summer, but way too busy and way too short. Jacci and I took our rd trip at the start of May which was a great kick-off. I also ran the mini marathon which felt great and I will try to attempt it again next year, which means I have to start my training soon so i can get as many long runs in before winter. I have a sort of break from RC Kids which was nice, but I still have the stress of finding volunteers for it. And, I have had a huge load of clients this summer. I am not complaining, because I am incredibly blessed with the economy being the way it is and all. But, I feel like I haven't gotten a break. I've pretty much worked every day but 2 Sundays since the rd. trip. That's insane, right?! I also was blessed having 2 doula clients this month. I hadn't had a birth since Crystal's and knew it was time. The experiences were awesome and the money will be good from them when I receive it next month. I think that the money I get from both births and from doing chair massages almost every night for 6 weeks at the SRSC will pay for Travis tuition this semester and a month of mortgage which is great to think about. It's just going to be a few more weeks till I get it all.

I've had a great summer, but now I know that when I return from camp, that it will be over. I'm already getting depressed and stressed about RC Kids which I don't feel is good since it's God's work. That confuses me big time and makes me cry when I think about it. I want to be super pumped about it, but I just can't be. Instead i have fear and frustration.

Onto camp....I'm excited about this week! I am blessed w/ like 10 amazingly awesome Christian people to be my counselors. We will have probably over 30 kids when everyone gets there today which is a good turnout, again w/ busy lives and a slow economy. We're watching the movie Big Fish this year and doing a lot of activities based on ideas from the movie. I don't have anything huge planned again like a "labyrinth" but I still think my ideas (and the ones people have helped me with, thanks everyone!) will be fun/cool. I always love this week each year. I also get so much out if it and am reminded each year how AWESOME our God is! All year I struggle, I fall, I do so much I am not proud of, but He is there to pick me back up again. I don't know why He loves me so much, but He does, and that's all that matters. The only sad thing about this year is that Crystal won't be there with me. This is the first year since being a camper, that I haven't had at least Tessa or Crystal with me the whole week. And that's just weird. It doesn't do much for my self-confidence, but I know God is watching over me. And, luckily they're both visiting which helps me breathe a little.

Please pray for me, the campers, the counselors, everyone and their hearts who is involved with our camp. I'll let you know how it went when I get back on Friday. Of course, I have 3 clients when I get home....stupid....